FIC: The Daily Apology

[verbal_kint]

Title: The Daily Apology
Rating: PG
Pairing: House/Wilson
Summary: Post 5.24 "Both Sides Now"  Wilson writes to House.







Monday

    Hey House,
   
    I know you told me not to call or write, so I’m sorry about this. I won’t call, don’t worry. I think we’re on the same page on that one. I did need to write though, and I’m guessing you’ll understand when I say this is more for me than for you. You don’t even have to read this if you aren’t feeling up to it.
    I guess I never realized just how much the rest of the world seems to pick up and move on after things like this. I told you that you’re the anti-social one. Don’t get me wrong, you’re still an ass, but I’m the one writing this stupid letter instead of eating my lunch. You’d laugh if you saw me now, smearing Thousand Island dressing all over my notebook whenever anyone walks by me because I don’t want them reading over my shoulder. As if they’d care, I suppose. Everybody knows I won’t finish this reuben; didn’t realize how big it was, eating two halves instead of one. I’ve got a patient now, but I think I’ll write you again tomorrow. Hope you don’t mind.

    Wilson

Tuesday

    Hey House,

    I’m going to give these letters to Cuddy, see if maybe she can give them to you when she visits on Sunday. Didn’t tell you she was planning to visit. I’m sorry; I couldn’t talk her out of it. I think she only falls for your screwed-up logic, although the logic behind that escapes me. I’m writing this at lunch again, but I got a salad today. I don’t know whether you’ll be proud or ashamed to read that, if you read it at all.
    Emerson in Cardiology got fired. Thought you’d want to know so you can collect your winnings when you get back. In all fairness, your guess was way off, meaning you should let me keep my $300. The Great Kevin Emerson was fired not because of his “universal incompetence” as I think you put it, but because he never graduated from med school. The word upstairs is that he had a buddy with some chutzpah and advanced photo editing software. Voila, diploma. I doubt it’s true, but it’s one hell of a story.

    Wilson

Wednesday

    Hey House,
   
    Heard this joke in the lounge yesterday.
    A doctor tells a guy: "I have bad news. You have Alzheimer's, and you have cancer." Guy says, "Thank God I don't have cancer."
    It’s not as funny as the ones you tell. Hell, it’s not as funny as the dirty ones I used to look up online so you’d think I was funny. I don’t even know why I wrote it down, to tell you the truth. You were right; nobody’s very funny around here.
    The video store called. Said Seven and Riding Miss Daisy are overdue. I’ll stop by your apartment after work and return them. I don’t know why you don’t just buy Seven, House. You pay more money renting it all the time than it’d cost down a Sam’s Club or something. I’m not really sure about the second one.

    Wilson

Thursday

    Hey House,

    Stopped by your apartment, just like I told you. Stayed a little longer than I thought, cleaning up a little. Brought some of those plug-in air fresheners over from my place and I put them in your bedroom. I mean, it wasn’t horrible or anything, but the air in there does get a little stale from you keeping your windows closed all the time. I watched Riding Miss Daisy. Hope you don’t mind.
    I thought about ordering a pizza or something, but I figured the delivery guy needed a break from us. Besides, I think that pizza with the cheese in the crust only comes in large, and I know I wouldn’t be able to finish that alone. Cleaned out your pantry and your fridge too, but I wrote down everything that was in there. I’ll restock it before you get back, maybe put something besides condiments in the fridge.
    I ate the last of the Rocky Road. Sorry.

    Wilson

Friday

    Hey House,

    I stopped at Target on my way home tonight. Seven was on sale, so I picked it up for you. I guess it’ll be your welcome home present, for when you get back. I was thinking we could watch it together. Maybe it’d help get everything back to normal. I still haven’t seen it; been putting it off ever since you told me Kevin Spacey was the killer. I guess I thought that if I tried hard enough, I could forget about it and the end would still come as a shock to me, but I haven’t, so I’m blaming you until you come home.

    Wilson

Saturday

    Hey House,

    One more day until Cuddy drives up there. Had a nightmare about it last night. I still don’t know how you’ll react, so I guess what I mean to say is sorry for bogging you down with all this. I know you never wanted to hear from me, and I understand, but I can’t actually do it. Sometimes I feel like I’m locked up too. I’m not even sure if you’ll read these, and if not, that’s probably for the best. If for some reason you are, stop now.
    I miss you.

    So sorry,
    Wilson


Sunday
    Wilson,
    Don’t be.
    House

Comments

[dreamsofspike.livejournal.com]

gaaaaaaah....

hon, i just don't know what to say...

this story is like therapy, and the stuff that makes you *need* therapy, all rolled into one :P lol... i'm all emotionally on edge and misty eyes with a lump in my throat finishing it... it seems like just exactly the kind of things wilson might be saying... and just the way house would respond...

the distance between them is almost a physical thing, so stark and painful... and yet there's the hope, very subtle, that when he gets back things will be able to be normal again...

very very well done, love... this is really amazing :)

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Gosh, thanks so much. I'm still a little iffy about this one, which is why I haven't put it on any communities yet, although your comment does wonders for my self-esteem, so thanks a million.

I'm really glad you liked it. :)

[poeia.livejournal.com]

Other than the fact that I refuse to believe Wilson would order pizza from Pizza Hut, I loved this. I can see Wilson babbling through his nervousness and apologizing for babbling and apologizing for apologizing -- just on paper.

And House's return letter was perfect.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

I know; he completely strikes me as the type to order from a local place, but I needed a pizza that would only come in large...which pisses me off by the way; I'm the only person in my family who likes that type of pizza, so unless I'm planning on eating nonstop all day I can't order it.

Thanks for baring through the pizza debacle though, lol. I'm glad you liked it. :)

[californiaquail.livejournal.com]

This was emotionally hard to read, only because of my own personal experiences. But that only means it was good.

I think it would take something like this for Wilson to realize he would miss House at all. Just my opinion.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think that House is often forced to consider whether or not he'll be "okay" when going into a situation, but I'm not sure Wilson ever is, and as a result he assumes things won't affect him as much. Not sure if that makes sense, lol; I'm quite tired.

Thanks so much for reading. :)

[piwi-chan.livejournal.com]

This is a lovely story ♥ Thanks so much for sharing !

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Aw, I'm glad you like it. Thanks so much for reading!

[hephaistia.livejournal.com]

This hurts. But it's such a lovely story. The ending was beautiful.

Good job! Thanks for sharing.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. :)

[arhh.livejournal.com]

That hurts, but it was great. Thanks for sharing :)

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thank you; I'm really glad you like it. :)

[jihime47.livejournal.com]

I had a dream that Wilson was visiting House at the facility and was reading him letters from the Ducklings and Cuddy, and he was crying. Wilson, that is. And after that they decided to run away and they did. And the nurse from "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" was chasing them.

And after I woke up and ate breakfast, I turned on my PC and checked my f-list and read that...

Loved that piece ♥

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Haha, that dream sounds pretty fic-worthy. I'd get on that if I were you. :)

Thanks so much for reading!

[christikat.livejournal.com]

Very moving story! Loved how Wilson was babbling about so many things and it hurt to read how much he misses House. The last lines were absolutely great - I hoped for something like this.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Aw thanks; you're very sweet. I'm glad you like it.

[hughville.livejournal.com]

This was amazing. You captured Wilson perfectly. And House's response at the end was perfect and made me cry a little. Poor Wilson.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

OMG. Cannot.Take.Teh.Hawtness. of you icon. :D


Anyways, thanks so much; you're too kind. Sorry it made you cry, but I'm glad you liked it. :)

[rhythmatista.livejournal.com]

Kinda heartbreaking, yeah. Well done.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[flippet.livejournal.com]

Aw, this is beautiful. Heartbreaking, but actually so hopeful, because House responded at all. I love it.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Aw thanks; I'm really glad you like it.

[xantemortemx.livejournal.com]

AWW! Just, aww.

House's reply at the end was just SO MUCH LOVE.
It made me feel all mushy and good, haha.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Haha, thanks a lot!

[dana-norram.livejournal.com]

My heart aches a little now. But in a good way, I think. This is so honest and beautiful. Thank you.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

No, no, thank YOU.

[bonomania.livejournal.com]

It's that ending - the Sunday bit - I think I awww'd out loud. It got me feeling all squishy-hearted (if that makes sense...)
This is wonderful, thanks for sharing.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Haha, your comment made me awww out loud. Thanks so much. :)

[catgirlpoison.livejournal.com]

I really enjoyed your story. Thanks for posting. I don't eat at pizza hut, and have been boycotting dominoes for years. I also don't like their veggie pizza so that helps. I'm lucky there is a great veggie pizza place in my neighborhood.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reading. Yeah, Pizza Hut's five minutes away from my house, so unfortunately I don't really have a choice.

[2801rosie.livejournal.com]

I'm not very good at putting thoughts to words but dreamspfspike put it so perfectly that I'm quoting her.

"the distance between them is almost a physical thing, so stark and painful... and yet there's the hope, very subtle, that when he gets back things will be able to be normal again..."

I agree with this 100%. You did a great job conveying that. I was so afraid it was going to end badly but then I read Sundays letter and teared up.
Great Job!

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to comment; it means a lot to me. :)

[blackmare-9.livejournal.com]

Hey.

I don't know how I missed this, but I like it so very much. Wilson apologizing for a lot of little things because he doesn't know how to apologize for the bigger stuff (and likely thinks House won't allow that anyway).

I particularly love the details of movies and food -- the sandwich being too big and the pizza as well. I'd been having a lot of the same thoughts about Wilson missing his favorite lunch-thief.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. I love your comments because they always make me feel way smarter than I actually am. I don't know if it's age or inexperience or what, but I'm not really good at articulating why I do things, so when I read your comments, they make me feel like I'm on the right track...even if the fic itself is a miss, haha. So thanks for taking the time to read; I very much appreciate it. :)

[dawningmama.livejournal.com]

This was really beautiful. Thanks for sharing it.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks, and thanks for reading. :)

[talesofmicetea.livejournal.com]

Sweet a little sour and a little sad"/

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reading!

[chickloveslotr.livejournal.com]

Very lovely! Great idea!

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[ladykatie7.livejournal.com]

Wonderful story! Great job!

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[nightdog-barks.livejournal.com]

Nice! The idea of Wilson being someone who would apologize for apologizing seems very apt.

Enjoyed this a lot!

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks, and thanks so much for taking the time to comment. It means a lot. :)

Haha, your icon is so epic.

[bukabe16.livejournal.com]

Great ending! Loved it <3

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Love your icon!

[ravenalegria13.livejournal.com]

Wow...I like this idea. It was like therapy for Wilson.

It was a good read.

[ravenalegria13.livejournal.com]

p.s. this is my only Wilson icon...

[genagirl.livejournal.com]

Damn. This is very moving. Very. I loved it but it made my eyes tear up at work. I hope that something like this will take place but I'm sure we won't see it. Thank you for this.

[verbal-kint10.livejournal.com]

Aw thanks so much. Sorry it made you tear up, but I'm glad you like it. :)